Chapter 73
Amaris' POV
"I....I should go." Kian gestured towards the door before getting up. I didn't want him to leave.....at least not now.
"Please don't go yet." I wrapped my fingers around his shirt averting his gaze. "If you go now I'll have nightmares." I waited for him to speak but he didn't say anything which made my heart beat even faster. "I know I'm asking for too much but I just need someone to stay with me. I promise it'll only be for a few minutes." I raised my head so I could look into his eyes again. He probably thought I was crazy and desperate....begging a guy to stay at my house because I was scared I was going to get a nightmare. How ridiculous.
I loosened my grip on his shirt before dropping my hand to my thigh. I should have thought about this before asking him to stay....hell I should thought about this before letting him into my house. Tonight has been a whole rollercoaster....from the falling on the couch to the little moments in the kitchen and the kiss....oh the kiss. I should have pushed him away when I had the chance. Now look...he kissed me, yes but I was the one who deepened it. I was the one who pulled him closer.....what if it was a mistake? What if he didn't mean to kiss me?
I dropped my gaze, lowering my head as I tried to calm the thudding heart in my chest. "N...nevermind. I'm fi..."
"I would love to stay." He sank beside me. "I mean.....so you won't get nightmares. Yeah we definitely don't want that." He stuttered causing a small smile to curl up my lips.
"Yeah....." I averted his gaze turning back to the TV. I picked up the remote and began scrolling through netflix before finally clicking on a random rom com. *When Harry met Sally.* I didn't know why I picked it though when I had already seen it before and I could bet Kian had. I loved romance movies....at least I loved watching them alone....or with Mia. Not with my boss's friend and cousin that I was sexually attracted to! But it was fine.....definitely fine. Nothing weird was going to happen.
The movie began and slowly I found the small distance Kian and I had kept between ourselves disappearing. I blamed it on the cold night. It was freezing in here and I was too lazy to go get a blanket and the only way we could get a bit of warmth was our body heat and before I realize I was already resting my head on Kian's shoulder. We watched in comfortable silence, occasionally exchanging hushed comments and giggles.
Meg Ryan's iconic "I'll have what she's having" line made us both burst out laughing, and I couldn't help but notice how relaxed and free he loved sitting here by my side. I mean don't get me wrong Kian was always relaxed but I don't know.....tonight he just looked so....different.
The movie finally came to an end and as the credits rolled, I flashed a smile at Kian, feeling my heart full. "Thanks....I think that's exactly what I needed." My eyes flickered between his and it took everything in me not to stare at his lips.
Kian then let out a small laugh before saying, "My pleasure." He placed a hand to his chest. I had told him that it'll just be a few minutes but it'd been more than an hour. I gazed into his eyes for a while before my gaze drifted to the clock on the wall. Kian probably followed my gaze because the next thing I heard was, "Oh my God...how the fuck did it get so late?" He asked getting up from the couch. It was almost 1 am in the morning and we hadn't even realized because we were up kissing and watching movies.....like couples would! A hint of pink color crept up my cheeks as I pushed the thought to the back of my head.
"Time flies when you're having fun I guess." I lifted my shoulders in a small shrug as I followed him to the door.
"Yeah....I guess." A gentle smile twitched at the corner of his lips as I held the door open for him.
"Good night..." I waved as he walked out. He pressed his lips together in a thin line and I couldn't help but assume there was something he wanted to say but for some reason he couldn't say it.
"Good night." He smiled awkwardly before he slowly turned to leave and the air between us grew thick with an uncomfortable silence. We stood at the door for a little while, hesitating, I waited cause I thought he had something to say and he? Not so sure.
When I realized he wasn't going to say anything, I turned to head inside but then for some unknown reason I decided to take one last look and there I saw Kian's hand frozen in mid air as he tried to reach for my shoulder. He then clenched his fist before dropping it to his side.
Our eyes met again and for a moment we just stared at each other, the tension between us palpable.
I decided to break the silence since he didn't want to say anything. "Thanks again...." I spoke, my voice barely above a whisper as I played with my fingers. "...for tonight." I added.
Kian dipped his head in a small nod, his smile weak. "No problem." He gave a tiny salute, his fingers barely brushing his forehead. Kian turned to leave again and I gently pushed the door still hoping to hear whatever it was that was running through his mind. Sadly he didn't. *Oh well....I guess it's just my imagination then.*
The door was about closing when It suddenly stopped. That was when I looked down to see that Kian had wedged in the gap with his leg halting the door's progress. Seconds later, Kian's face appeared through the opening, his eyes locked on mine with a determined glint.
"Wait!" He rushed in before I could even say anything or even react. My brows dipped as I stared at him. *So he did have something to say.*
"What is it?" I asked a I felt a surge of emotion rush through me as possible scenarios flashed in my head. As he opened his mouth to say something, I relaxed my grip on the door handle about shutting it but then he stopped by placing his hand on mine. "There's no need to shut the door again. It'll only take a few seconds."